Enigma of the Heart

i haven't been singing in a while now and i'm really, really missing it. i used to be a song leader at church but i resigned...

i still sing in the bathroom or in my room and hum a tune while working but i miss the part where you lead the congregation to worship God. through the songs God's spirit is moving to heal, renew, and bless His people. i just miss the ministry, and how God is using me to lead the the people to Him. aw... i really miss it.

anyways, as i was cleaning the room i saw my guitar in the corner and i know that he's feeling sad that i ignore him and let dust settle on him. so i played it and it was way out of tune! i tuned it and tried playing a couple of songs i remember. a song flashed in my mind and it was "Strong Enough" by Stacie Orrico. i looked online for the chords of the song and thought it's easy to play.

i wanted to try singing this song, and there's a website where you get to record your song online. it's basically a capella, and after recording you get to play it and if you messed up you can try again. i've recorded twice on that website, the first song is I Promise by Jaci Velasquez and the other one is Strong Enough by Stacie Orrico. here is a link if you'd like to listen to my rendition of the songs http://www.midomi.com/index.php?action=main.profile&username=happy14.

just wanna say that i'm not a professional singer!!! i admit i'm not really good and i'm not singing to get the applause of the people- i sing for the glory of GOD. if people will give compliments for my singing then i bring it back to God. if it's a criticism (hopefully objective) then that'll serve as a motivation for enhancement.


To GOD be the glory!

i haven't been sleeping early for the past few days ( as if I'm really sleeping early) and i really feel so lethargic during the day. since i started blogging i usually sleep around 5 or 6 am ( shh.. my husband's gonna get mad if he knows about this) and wake up at 12 noon. before i used to sleep at 3 or 4 am and still get 8-9 hours of sleep. now i sleep for only 6 hours so i got really sluggish. and this morning i woke up at 11 am because we have to prepare for church. i found it difficult to get up, i'm still so sleepy and i have to ask my mom for an extension- "ma, 5 minutes"...

when i got up i didn't prepare or anything. instead i laid down on the floor and slept for another 5 minutes. this is my attitude actually. if i have an appointment, say, at 10 am, i have to set the alarm 2 hours earlier so i can always give myself a 'sleep extension' hahaha.

i noticed that i've got two obvious bumps on my face. ah, alam ko na. perhaps it was caused by the moisturizer i used yesterday that irritated my so sensitive face causing breakouts, or probably because my sleeping habit changed.

omg. ang pangit naman!!!

in the Bible it is said that there is a time for everything, a season under heaven. God designed the day for us to work and the night for us to sleep. but because of our different lifestyles where one has to work at night and sleep in the morning, we may not follow the original purpose of sleeping at night. we must realize that sufficient sleep especially at night will help the body restore its strength, enhances cognitive performance, memory, and health. lack of sleep actually causes weight gain (no wonder i've gained a pound or two!) and pimples too.

sleep is important not just to maintain a clear complexion but to rest ourselves from worries of the day. 'yaan mo na nga yang pimples na yan. that's alright. after a few days it will shrink and then gone! thanks to avon porefection i get blemish-free, clear skin! uhmm, not yet. after 1-2 weeks i'll be seeing results. guess i have to get more zzzzzzzzzzzzz's..........

at exactly 2030 last night the Philippines participated in the Earth Hour by switching the lights off for 1 hour. this advocacy started in Sydney 2 years ago to raise awareness of the effects of climate change in the planet. many countries also took part in this major event.

i signed up for Earth Hour and expressed my participation in the event

i'm glad to have contributed in the advocacy against global warming. even in simple ways like this, we can make a big difference. i've read some comments about people who are against this campaign. they just don't care at all for the world they're living in. no wonder we suffer from climate change and global warming!

ignoring the detractors, this event actually unified the people around the world and showed its concern for the environment. the earth is the place God gave us to live. and God gave us the responsibility of caring for it, not destroying it. God may have given us wisdom to make our lives better through electricity and automobiles and all that but not to the expense of earth's destruction. we must make every effort to save it and care for it because when the it's gone, we're gone too.

to join with us in the campaign against global warming and a better earth, visit http://www.earthhour.org/home/

ever since we started to have an internet connection, i became interested with free personality tests to know more about myself. there's one site before that I used to login to everyday to take quirky personality tests. it was entertaining. that's one of the hobbies i had before- taking up personality tests- aside from playing online games. that's like 2 years ago. i'd like to rediscover myself again- so i took a test from www.learnmyself.com and realized how accurate the results were after taking the test. i was so amazed. i mean, i know myself but i didn't realize that until i've read my personality report! i guess this goes to show that psychologists know me better than i know myself! hahaha!
i've convinced my husband to do the same, and took a test from that site. i've discovered things in him that i didn't know though we've been living together for 8 years. i was so surprised upon learning the results... it wasn't a turn off or anything. it was fun indeed, learning more about ourselves.
my goal is to know in which career i would excel, basically the reason why i took the personality test. one site revealed (www.kisa.ca )that my personality type is ISFP (introverted, sensing, feeling, perceiving) and that jobs which would expose my artistic side are a great match. Chef, designer, editor, writer, artist, technician- to name a few. Famous people with ISFP personalities include Barbara Streisand, John Travolta, Brooke Shields, Kevin Costner, Steven Spielberg and Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart (www.mypersonality.info). aw. and i'm so proud :)

from http://www.learnmyself.com/, here's my personality report:

Personality Test - Report

Neuroticism 81

Extraversion 63

Openness to Experience 46

Agreeableness 26

Conscientiousness 31

You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity, however you do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.
This report compares you to other women between the ages of 21 and 40 in Philippines.
Neuroticism

Overall Score 81
Anxiety 96
Anger 95
Depression 26
Self-Consciousness 57
Immoderation 43
Vulnerability 94
You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.


Extraversion

Overall Score 63
Friendliness 22
Gregariousness 25
Assertiveness 84
Activity Level 90
Excitement-Seeking 42
Cheerfulness 89
People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activites. You lead a fast-paced and busy life. You move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously and are involved in many activities. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy.


Openness to Experience

Overall Score 46
Imagination 74
Artistic Interests 50
Emotionality 70
Adventurousness 31
Intellect 37
Liberalism 29
Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You are reasonably interested in the arts but are not totally absorbed by them. You have good access to and awareness of your own feelings. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You enjoy a certain amount of debate or intellectual thought, but sometimes get bored with too much. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition.


Agreeableness

Overall Score 26
Trust 30
Morality 10
Altruism 6
Cooperation 44
Modesty 50
Sympathy 79
You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity.


Conscientiousness

Overall Score 31
Self-Efficacy 50
Orderliness 22
Dutifulness 3
Achievement-Striving 37
Self-Discipline 44
Cautiousness 67
You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.

Everyone has different personalities and God fashioned us that way. Differences in our personalities shows that we're truly special. Imagine how God took time to create each one of us, designing in us a variety of attitudes, virtues and principles which makes up our unique personality. Perhaps I am reserved and distant and difficult to understand. But God lovingly chose us inspite of our flaws and saved us from our sins and His wrath. He has a purpose why He designed that way- it's to give God the glory through our lives and different personalities.