Enigma of the Heart

there are a lot of happenings this past week. first, my daughter's been schooling. as a hands-on mom i wake up in the morning to prepare their breakfast and baon, send them to school and fetch them after classes. as i've told in my previous posts, i'm getting really tired but this weekend is just a blessing. of course, no classes!

last friday my sister brought home a bad news. she was terminated from sitel because of poor performance and tardiness. my sister was saddened about the announcement. that was the first job she liked in her whole working life, and the only job she enjoyed doing. that was the only job she felt she was happy doing that she never dragged her feet going to work. too bad it wasn't meant for her. she felt she was sabotaged by indifferent superiors so she was terminated. but my sister's resilient. she bounced back after that incident. she realized that God is teaching her something and that there is certainly a purpose why God didn't want her to continue working there. the reason why, i don't know, but God will reveal it in time.

last wednesday or thursday ( i can't really remember the exact day) i received a letter from PLDT and Telus. the pldt letter is for me, about my default payment arrangement. truth is i forgot about it, and wasn't able to pay for it. so they sent me a letter. but now it's settled. :) from Telus is for my sister, stating that she has to report back for work after an AWOL (my sister always does that *wink*).  it as a month already since she AWOLled from job but it was a coincidence that they sent a letter because she was about to be terminated from work. unfortunately though, the letter was so super delayed that they have closed her profile in the company and can't go back to work- unless she re-apply. wala rin, ganun din. hehehe.

another bad news surprised us: my cousin who is pregnant and married is now abandoned by her husband leaving her for another woman. that cousin of ours is our closest cousin- she was like a sister to me. i was shocked when she sent me a message in my friendster about it. my sister called her up immediately to find out if it's true, and indeed it is. i feel so bad for her. i think men like his husband should be put to jail. at least be put to jail rather than be killed. let's just say whatever is the worse- i just won't say it.

she has to sue him for infidelity- only if she have in hand an evidence to prove it. but i think she has to pursue suing him. if i were her i'd not want to have anything to do with him and her family. i'll take responsibility of raising the child without the father. i'd rather think of him as dead or not existing at all. even if his family would ask to see our son i'd fight for my right as a mother neglected by their son who doesn't care at all. i hate guys like that.

and also last friday, my daughter wasn't able to go to school because her school service didn't fetch her up. i'd definitely tell the principal about this matter. they should know that it will be hard for my daughter to travel! the reason why we sent her there to study is because of the tuition fee! and a service from school is equivalent to money because i will be paying for it! i just want convenience for my daughter. they should've told me if they are not going to fetch her so we'll be looking for someone else! grrrr...

while i was looking for my daughters' birth certificates, i found my CAP certificate of scholarship. it was a scholarship certificate transferred to me by my husband since he's busy working. he has given me that so i can continue my studies. unfortunately it didn't push through, so the certificate was like useless over the years. now that i found it i'd like to pursue my college education again. how i wish it's God's plan.

i think i've already mentioned in my previous post that we already found a helper at home. better so that she could do the things i don't want to do- cleaning the house, washing the dishes and all the other chores. hehehe. but she's leaving for work as early as now (she just came in last week and now she's asking for a vacation). valid reason: she has to take her baby girl back to the province. the baby is hindering her from working. several times she can't finish her job on time because the baby is crying and is looking for her. there are times that she can't clean our room because she has to leave early. she even forgot to iron my daughter's uniform! grrr... very emotional week.

but above it all, i'm thankful for God's grace, we're still alive. God is so good! Thank you, Lord!

be updating again if i'm not busy. so long, maties!

haven't updated my blog for a long time.. i'm groping for words to say actually. i've been preoccupied with so many things lately that i haven't thought of a topic to share. hehe. oh, and there will be a major improvement here- i mean with my site- anytime soon.

remember the time i was having dilemma? to work or not to work... i have resolved the issue now. and it's not to work! hahaha! while some people are so desperate searching for jobs, i on the other hand chose not to work. i have to attend to my kids and the business that's why.

what else? uhmm... since my eldest daughter was born, i became fond of spongebob squarepants. i've been collecting dvd's of spongebob episodes and they never fail to make me laugh! i even have a collection of soundtracks from the movie and tv episodes. i listen to it everyday and i love it!!! i think i'm beginning to look like him rofl!

it's the end of the summer season in the country and too bad i haven't enjoyed it. we can't afford an out-of-town trip, or swimming in a private resort. that was what i wanted to do last holy week but unfortunately didn't push through. well, alright. it happens.

i have been feeling sick these past few weeks or since january this year, but i don't bother to notice it. i just thought well maybe i'm just tired or i lack sleep. but when i shared to mama what i've been going through, she told me that maybe i'm developing diabetes. since then i started to be concerned about my health. i made a declaration to exercise and do jogging every morning. well, good luck to me. :) i even asked my hubby to buy me running shoes to motivate me. i'm still waiting for it.

i'm feeling sleepy. i can't continue this anymore. i'm running out of words to say.

until then!

i've been kinda busy these past few days. i'm learning different things and neglected to update my blog. my random thoughts are having difficulty focusing on which "thing" of greater importance should i study first. i get too overwhelmed by the information i feed my mind and i'd like to learn everything instantaneously.

first off is basic web designing. I grew fond of this subject for i acquaint myself of the internet and social networking all the time and i've seen myself dissatisfied of cheesy or childish or "emo" type of layouts that they have on the net for free. i'd really like to make one for my own. so for the past 3 days i'm studying HTML coding and CSS. i've learned much of the pretty basic important stuff to building a website. i've tried working on a couple of trial HTML and CSS and were surprised that it wasn't difficult to do as i thought it was. it's actually fun to learn and interesting to master.

second is the historical and archaeological evidences of the Bible. reasonably, the Bible's truth is authentic. Scholars, archaeologists and people devoted to this study has bear witness of its validity. therefore, it's irrational to refute its authenticity. there may be some parts of the Bible that needs to be verified- i mean historically- but the Bible is consistent with its truth and message: the salvation of mankind. there have been evidences of how historically the Bible took place, and archaeological artifacts prove that it all happened. apparently, the study made me feel revived in my faith. i'll update this site with infos about this topic. i'll be doing a thorough research of it haha.

honestly while learning these things i realized my hunger for learning. perhaps the lack of finances leading to being a college undergrad made my brain crave for information- like an emptiness that needs to be filled. i'm interested in learning many different things, that oftentimes i cannot concentrate on learning one thing at a time. there are days when i feel like researching and studying any subject that caught my curiousity then i suddenly get bored. :) don't know why, but maybe too much learning makes jack a dull boy!

i'm not really a deep, intellectual person. it's just that i love learning that's all...