my birthday's coming up 2 weeks from now and i don't know what to expect. for the past years i've been celebrating "dry" birthdays, and this year won't be different. but in my heart there's a ray of hope that God will bless me with a different birthday celebration.
oh, i remember my birthday celebration last year- i think it's the happiest bday celebration i had ever. because our pastor (in my former church) treated us out. he didn't know it was my birthday, and it was a coincidence. so i told him about it and he told me to buy a birthday cake. i actually celebrated my birthday at chowking sta. lucia!!!
pastor kim and me
where have all the cherries gone???
it was so fun, my friends sang their hearts out and people were looking at us. it was actually 2 birthday celebrations- a coincidental treat from 2 different people. that day our other pastor is leaving for Korea so she planned to have a party. she invited us over, have a spaghetti and that's it!
pastora joan, the spaghetti and me and don't forget the coke
jojo, ako, kherie and feliz
still, i'm so thankful that i didn't have to spend for my bday celebration and i felt like it was a gift from God and from my pastors. that time i didn't have money for my bday celebration. it was like a blessing.
this year... i don't know. i'm keeping my hopes up, but i'm not expecting too much. the truth is i'm not really asking for anything. i didn't ask my husband for gifts, i didn't even remind my mom or sister about it. but there was one time when my sis told me that she would treat me for a hair makeover on my birthday- a hair rebond specifically. but i rejected, coz i know it would be expensive. so i told her a spa treatment or facial treatment would be better. she agreed coz it's a lot cheaper. i do not expect a gift or a birthday greeting or anything. i'm so used to it. i'm not feeling self- pity or what, it's just that i don't care whether they'll greet me or not. after all, i'm used to that having a birthday on vacation and my classmates don't remember.
my husband is giving me a surprise gift. i'm really excited to know what that is. i don't care if i have a gift or not. what matters to me is my daughter's birthday, 2 days after mine's. if i have money for my celebration, i'd rather give it to my daughter so she'll be having a happy birthday party. my daughter's happiness is a lot more important to me.
i don't have to be pessimistic and negative about my upcoming bday. i should be thankful rather than fret about it. i am thankful to God for His blessings for the whole year, for His grace and mercy and forgiveness. last 2008 was such a fruitful year. and i believe, in Jesus mighty Name, that He will pour out more blessings, and prosperity in the family and business. i believe that God will use me to minister to other people through songs. i believe that God will fulfill His plans in me. not all of a sudden but eventually...
now i'm excited! besides, a lot of people compliment me for not looking my age! they told me i look young- and i believe them. :)
