Enigma of the Heart

I have just finished work and though it may be demanding, I am beginning to love it. I enjoy how I could play around with Photoshop and unleashing my creative spirit to each project that I create. I like how I have to blog as one of the activities I have to submit. And the whole time when I can watch Youtube tutorial videos. This job is helping me enhance my skills and that is what I like.

I am saddened by my random realizations about life and relationship. There is this one part of me that tells me what's good, and there's this rebellious, discontented half who's saying it's not worth it. I am not biased, and I listen to both their opinions to help me decide on something. But of course, the good always outweigh the bad, and I end up understanding and accepting. Understanding that everyone is not perfect and that they have flaws and that good things doesn't always happen and accept the fact that it is the only thing that's constant.

I began to lose hope in changing for the better. It is then that I have learned to let go and let things happen their own time and own way. There is still a part of me though that insists in making the change happen immediately, but no, I really can't force it no matter how hard I try. And when that happens, I just go to my bed and burst into tears, praying that one day, he will realize my worth.

I didn't know that after all these years I'd still have the same issue. I need to think things over and write another happier entry. After all, this is my 101st post. Let's not count this one, shall we?

It has been a long, long while hasn't it? Hahaha. And it actually feels good to be back. A lot has changed since my last entry and well, things did turn out for the better.

That Marketing Associate post, I got it. I stayed there for almost 2 years before leaving for another company. From then on, I hopped to different centers, hoping I would land on a career I would love doing; where I could unleash my fullest potential and passion. I was not successful on my job search for 2 years. Hopefully it would be the end of it with the job I have now.

Currently I am working from home and I am loving every moment of it. I wanted to do more actually, since I am just at home. It does not matter if I could extend my working hours for I do not have to worry about traveling and commuting. I will just have to sit in front of the computer and I am all set. I do not even have to bother about taking a bath and looking good.

I am looking for an outlet where I could pour my heart out whenever I am angry and sad, and hey, I remember this old blog I have. Maybe tomorrow I could start anew and return the passion that was lost.