I was never different. All those songs, they never meant a thing. Everything was just b*s*. I am sorry, I really am angry. I just can't believe he would do that to me. But at least I know better now and having him back would be the stupidest thing I will ever do. I won't let him back, and we're never ever, ever, ever get back together. As in, never.
He won't make me believe all those lies, he won't make me fall again for those apologies and sweet words anymore. I regret the very first day he has come back and wish that it never happened. Honestly, I wanted to go to Dr. Mierzwiak, and undergo a procedure to remove all the memories I had with him. I want to completely delete him from my mind, my system and from my heart. I was actually asking God to extinguish that flicker of love and hope left inside my heart for him. I don't want to be hopeful about us anymore, there's nothing to be hopeful for... I'm giving up.
No one knows exactly what I'm going through right now. I can't tell anyone about this, so I'm facing it all by myself. Letting go is so difficult, but I have to do it- drastically, impulsively. I don't want to cling to anymore memories, and I don't want to give my heart a chance to think twice. He left me in midair, and never came back. I knew all along that he cheated on me, that he just played with my heart and toyed me.
I swear he's going to regret this, every single thing he did to make me fall in love with him. He will suffer miserably for the pain he's brought me. He just doesn't know what I'm going through right now. I am angry, bitter, and just doesn't wish for good luck nor happiness for him. Why would I even do that? I will be a hypocrite if I would be happy for him.
Karma will get even with you soon. Very, very soon. You will regret this.







